A Crazy Arrogant Hippie

Yes, I have become "that" Mom...the mom who is going all out NATURAL. Although, this was yet again another unplanned pregnancy, I am thrilled to know that I have another shot at creating the healthiest environment possible for my new little bean and bringing life into this world that is strong and prepared. 

Organic. Midwife. Natural Labor. Water Birth. These words used to make me very uncomfortable and even defensive. I hang my head in shame to admit that a few short years ago, I viewed those moms who went all natural as either arrogant, hippie, or crazy. Now I know that I probably just felt threatened because the truth is that I didn't know a darn thing about how to have a healthy pregnancy. I didn't really educate myself on anything deeper than the basics. For the most part, through the first 2, I was just trying to survive. Well, I am making the choice during this pregnancy to thrive! I can proudly say that I am now that "crazy arrogant hippie" mom.

I believe that life begins in the womb. I believe that every choice we make as mothers from the moment of conception impacts the life inside of us for the rest of his or her existence. I know this now all too well. With my first pregnancy I was stressed, I lived on double-stacks and McFlurries, I gained 60 lbs, I never exercised, I was induced 2 weeks early, I was pumped full of medication during my 30 hr labor, I had a uterine infection, and when my child was born, I was too weak to hold her, she was taken away, pumped full of antibiotics, vaccinated, and then returned to me a broken baby. I blame no one but myself for this because had I known any better, I wouldn't have made ANY of those decisions. 

God gave me the most beautiful little girl with the sweetest spirit who doesn't have a harsh bone in her body. She is full of life and love for others, but she has been tormented by sensory integration dysfunction which is a nervous system disorder and I believe it is a directly related to a toxic womb. My husband and I have been able to bring healing to her all naturally through healthy diet, exercise, and prayer, and she is truly a different child, but there are certain demons she will face forever. 

She has turned me into a warrior as a mother. My children are totally dependent on me for life. I can't go back and change things but I can do the very best I know how each day. I realize I may be jumping the gun. Apparently I haven't known I was pregnant for quite a while and DEFINITELY would have made better decisions had I known....like SLEEP for instance and not Teach 12 aerobics classes a day! Sheesh. But, we will see in 3 weeks if all is well within the womb. If not, that's ok. I believe God knows what he's doing. Nothing in life happens without reason. For those of you who know me well, you know I learn lessons the hard way, but it has made me resilient, wiser, and stronger as a woman. 

I look forward to going through this pregnancy applying all that I've learned and will learn to maximize the health of my womb and my green little been. Yes, I've thrown out all the toxic things in my house. I have two temples to care for now. I'm excited to begin this journey and meet new life at the end!!